Cranky. At the ER last night, had a 102 fever, allergic reaction to an antibiotic and a kidney infection. Though they were giving me big doses of narcotic painkillers, and I was in huge pain and so out of it I was hallucinating, I stopped the nurse three times from giving me doses of medicine in my IV that I had stated when I first came in that I was allergic to. The resident came in and apologized an hour later, oh sorry, I should have known. Yes, you should have. Note: go to the ER with someone who knows your drug allergies and have them watch the nurses doing the IV drips like a freakin’ hawk.

Update: Whine deleted. Wonderful husband fixed car. Stayed in because (re: deleted whine) sick, and as a result, finished several assignments and read Anne Carson’s The Beauty of The Husband, which I liked but not as much as I liked Autobiography of Red. Wrote three poems. All in all, blessings and more blessings, many things to be grateful for.
Also, scheduled first official book reading for my and Martha Silano’s books debuting from Steel Toe Books next year: June 22 at Open Books in Seattle. Afterwards, some kind of party will be planned. Possibly with free cupcakes.

But onto people with real problems. Southeast Review and Southern Review are both asking people to send checks for Katrina victims in exchange for issues of their magazines.

This just in: Poetry News Headlines

Just wanted to let any Haiku fans in the audience know about this:
Haiku North America – a weekend conference – Sept 21-25 at Centrum Center for the Arts, Port Townsend, WA. Register and find out more at http://www.centrum.org/index.php?page=Haiku-North-America-Conference

Also, Wendy Wisner’s Epicenter is subversively dark around the edges, elegant and spare in a way that reminds me of Louise Gluck, and definitely worth a second and third reading. Brava Wendy!

My friend Ronda Broatch is launching her new chapbook from Finishing Line Press tonight. Congrats!

And congrats to Deborah and Suzanne and thier fabulous new babies!

Not poetry-related, but hilarious: When my hematologist brought in a diagnostic pathologist to meet me this week and talk about all my weird health anomalies, I made a side-joke as she expressed her surprise at my many low-probability genetic-mutation-related anamolies – “Yes, any day now I expect to be getting my superpowers.” And she said? “Like the X-Men?” Finally, a doctor who gets my comic book references! Plus, she was tall and looked like Famke Janssen. If I was a guy and not happily married, I would have asked her out right there.

Got Wendy Wisner’s Epicenter in the mail today – can’t wait to read it! Probably at one of the four doctor’s appointments I’ve got scheduled in the next seven days. Ah, poetry – the best thing to have in a waiting room, along with those “homey” touches like fireplaces and aquariums I’ve noticed popping up in the last five years. I do like the fireplaces, actually – the air conditioning always makes the labs freezing, so it’s nice to warm up. Let me point out that due to all the health problems I’ve been having, my latest romantic television crush is the star of the tv show House. I have dreams where he’s my doctor, he solves all my problems, and then I rush into his arms. Pathetic, huh?
Good news from my mom – thanks for everyone who sent their well wishes – it turns out the surgeon got all of the cancer on the first try, it hadn’t spread all that much, and the cancer wasn’t the bad type – melanoma – that they were worried about, only basal cell carcinoma. Still she had to have part of her face reconstructed because it had grown so much before they caught it. She’s already looking much better – my dad has been sending pics of her progress every day since the surgery. She’s one of those fair skinned blondes that burns every time she walks outside. My husband is too, so now I’m going to just buy them both tubs on high-powered sunscreen and hats at every holiday opportunity.
And got news today that my MFA program (from which I’m currently on a semester-long leave of absense b/c of health stuff, but to which I plan to return in January) is not going to fall apart as previously feared, the college is going to continue the program and possibly even make it better.

Prayers and good thoughts to those affected by Katrina. I was happy to hear from most of my friends in Mississippi and Alabama and they were safe and sound, though most of them without power.

http://www.networkforgood.org

My personal favorite place to donate is Northwest Medical Teams – http://www.nwmedicalteams.org/
They spend a majority of their donations on actually helping people, as opposed to administration.

Also I’m asking for good thoughts for my mom, who just found out a small tumor on her face was malignant.

(update: check out an interesting blog on the “leadership” surrounding this disaster from a woman in the air force: http://kimponders.blogspot.com/2005/09/too-important-to-be-left-to.html
Then, check out one of our own blogger poets, who has been documenting her experiences in her blog: http://cochondelait.blogspot.com/
Also, if anyone buys my chapbook from me this month or next, I’ll donate all proceeds to hurricane charities, either the Red Cross or the Northwest Medical Teams.
And thanks to Jeffery Bahr’s software company, who was matching donations…)

Preparing for onslaught of in-law visits for three weeks. Working feverishly on the MS for its final version, writing “end notes” for poems with obscure references, getting rid of lines that aren’t working, trying to fix missed punctuation, and all that. Found out that I have a rare genetic condition that results in something called “PAI-1 Deficiency,” which is a bit like a mild case of hemophilia. It means blood clots are continually broken down, instead of building up enough to stop any bleeding completely. This results in a bad situation when you go in for say, minor surgery or have minor head trauma. Which means that I get to try some new drugs, like something called “Amicar.” Sounds like Amway for Cars. Fun for me. Anyway, let me sing the praises of the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance once again. Very humane treatment, and smart, tenacious doctors. Who give you their e-mail addresses. My little brother has to be tested for this genetic mutation too. He runs a Shaolin Dojo, so he’s much more at risk for, say, sword injury than I am. I stay away from the swords and the kicks to the head in general.
Someone mentioned short poems, so I thought I’d post my latest poem, which was inspired by a USA Today headline:

“Disney Hopes Fairies Will Fly Into Girls’ Hearts”

Imagine: their sweet little hearts glutted
not by blood and plasma but fairies,
flitting about the ventricles, their wings
benign but dangerous as scalpels.

Also got to see Ben Folds and Rufus Wainwright perform this weekend. The highlight was when they sang a duet version of a Wham song, I think it was Careless Whisper. Hilarious, although most of the crowd just seemed perplexed. From the side, Rufus looks like a more slender Kevin Sorbo.
This is the artist that I’m working with for the cover of Becoming the Villainess. Here’s her web site – click on “Illustration” to see examples of her work. Quite the genius, and a lovely person as well. www.michaelaeaves.com My favorite pics are the girl with the skeleton and the fairy-tale looking gnome castle.
And a quiz: what’s your favorite film with a female superhero? Spy girls count as superheroes, as do crime fighters.

Feeling very grateful for things…
The last ten days have brought a lot of good news. First the call from Steel Toe Books that after 24 months (almost exactly to the day) of sending out my MS, Becoming the Villainess will really be a real live book next spring, complete with little Kentucky-oriented book tour. Then my husband found out he had been promoted at work, then my “blood doctor” called with the news that, after six months of testing, they finally, in the latest set of blood tests, had pinpointed my bleeding disorder and have suggested treatment for it. I won’t know the results or treatment til i visit the research center on Thursday, but still, this is very good news for me and my veins which have been having weekly draws for months now and were starting to complain.
So, on top of all this, this morning I wake up and read The Pedestal Magazine’s newsletter, and low and behold, they’ve done a review of my chapbook, Female Comic Book Superheroes. What nice news to start the day with!
Needless to say, I am ready to be nice to random old ladies, give to charity, and otherwise follow the grateful, happy poet path. And, you readers, have also made my life better by being so encouraging all the way. I owe everyone cake. So when you see me, demand cake. Or a hug. Frankly, I’m just feeling disgustingly wonderful towards everyone I meet.

Just got back from the Reel to Read reading at On the House, which was a blast! Had some old friends show up unexpectedly (thanks, Lana and Colleen!) and the other readers, hip and funny Besty Aoki (who had on great boots – you should have seen them, R. Loudon) and Derek Sheffield ,were fun to listen to. And, people actually bought chapbooks – thanks everyone! – which always makes you feel loved and appreciated. The space was really relaxed and easy, and the organizer, Larisa, very professional. So I recommend the reading series to one and all.

Onto the good news I’ve been promising:
I got a call Sunday from the publisher of Steel Toe Books in Kentucky. They have offered to publish “Becoming the Villainess” next spring. So, bookbookbookbookbookbook, yaay! I’ve been scrambling around to find cover art already.
Also, in a strange twist of fate, they are also publishing a friend of mine’s manuscript, Martha Silano. Kentucky readers love Seattle girls? Who knew?
That is all. Except, can anyone tell me whether I’m supposed to withdraw poems from lit mags if they are in the manuscript that’s coming out next spring, or send a letter, or what?

Full moon. Glenn took me out for duck confit after the reading to celebrate, and I bought chocolate-covered madeleines. Several good days in a row. Also, several paying assignments have flowed in. So perhaps this year, after six or seven or eight months of not-so-much-goodness/surgery/health problems/etc, will tilt in my favor after all.

Here’s where I’ll be tomorrow night…http://www.poetryfestival.org/reel_to_real.php
Jeannine Hall Gailey will be reading poems about female comic book superheroes, biblical heroines, and why there are so many dead girls in movies…with Betsy Aoki and Derek Sheffield at 7:30 PM 8/17 at “On the House” in Capitol Hill, Seattle. Live poets and videopoems!
Be there or be square.
News still forthcoming…

Some secret good news I can share soon…stay tuned…